Kerri Anne

Is letting me down

but I am so used to it now that it doesnt even phase me

Ian

I suck

At keeping a schedule that makes blogging consistent.

At work the other night I spent all my time singing, just singing.

A lot of the time I was good enough to get the song stuck in people's head.

It was great, there were at least 5 people with "Boys of Summer" by Don Henley, or the Ataris variously embedded in their head.

Also, I ended up singing a lot of Elton John, which bothers me, because up until now I never had the problem of liking Elton John.

At least not enough to sing it.

Sleep

I've never been very good at it.

That's why I think I liek the closing shift at the store.

Everyone else hates it with a passion, a flaming passion of torrid hurry, with resigned candor.

it's a weird mix

and we all sit there and talk about stuff as we block

one girl got broken up with today

that sucks

I told her to drink it away, which on second pass is a bad idea

oh well

I had to give up my laptop today, and without it I feel empty,

but no worries
just repairs

Item 1

This is my Christmas tree, I leave it up all year round. This is in part due to the fact that it looks pretty damn cool.

Also, I like that it is a sort of blueish white, because then it can go with other holidays, and I can add ornaments to it to match the time of year.

My mom gave it to me, because I begged her for one like my math teacher Mrs. Curtis had.

This looks nothing like the tree Mrs. Curtis had, in fact, there is very little way it could look anything less like the tree Mrs. Curtis had, but I'm glad, it makes me unique.

Behind it you can see a jar of headache pills, they're like a little present to myself, every time my head feels like someone has addled it with a jackhammer.

Merry Christmas to me.

Working on my room

Hard to find a job

I was just talking to my grandmother, and she has been trying to find a new job for a long time.

She went to a restaurant and the amount of applicants that they have had is up, to almost five hundred applicants per ninety days.

and the restaurant wasn't hiring.

I really hope things get better, soon.

We really need it here in my town.

Failure to launch

I relied on my mother for money today,

and it drove me crazy.
I hated that I couldnt do for myself,
it was a low point of this month.

but why?

What causes this embarrassment that I am feeling?

There is no logical reason, everyone needs to be picked up and dusted off sometimes.

still sucks